It can by said that so-called modern philosophy that fascinates so many people has nothing to do with the real philosophy.
Just take a look at the names of some well known philosophical branches of 20th century :
The real philosophy shall lead a thinker to the Wisdom, in other words to the Unity of Truth, Goodness, and Beauty. Now, do you know Whose above-mentioned atributes are?
Yes, a philosopher shall be at least open to God's existence, and Neither Derrida nor Camus and Nietzsche were.
So if you want to be the Philosopher someday, you would better start with good and reliable names on your ''must read'' list:
St. Thomas Aquinas, St. Augustin, St. Theresa Benedicta of the Cross, Joseph Mary Bochenski or John Paul II definitely knew what the philosophy is about.
PS. Please, pray for me.